{04/11/2016}
This is my own path. I’m writing this for no one except myself.
If anyone should read this, be warned: You can not judge, you can not comprehend, you can not apply.
Here are the wonders of my life. Who can claim them for their own?
- 10* for 8** for 9** of 2**/****. And at such a young age and such through such mundane experiences!
- Errors such as a faux-10 directing 3** receiving 5**
- Such as mixing 7*, such as 7* within 3**, or within 4** of 10**
- Such as addled 10, that directs itself to its own outer, or to 7* at 10, or to 1 qua 10 lower
- Divestment of 3* !!
- Talmud, Einstein, Plato, the unfolding of Western thought (from c.600BCE to the 1950’s), the sublimity of molecular biology, neuroscience, the doors of perception, systems, more recently horse ethology (6**-6*-6** what a sublime education and who could have predicted?), Buddhist phenomenology, Hindu and Yoga, the search for the self, discovery of the metaphor of the metaphor, the dreamtime, Kabbalah and Judaism
- Who else has described the shape of the spacecraft? (So specifically, directly, with notes on controls for places the majority could not imagine!)
- What proportion have unlocked a majority of these laneways?
- What proportion have dreamed such specific dreams of protein dances? Seen such sublime shapes?
- What proportion have travelled and experienced the unfolding of the Western mind in that way?
- What proportion have stepped beyond their bounds from West to East? Or seen the other ways of seeing? Or seen the other ways of tradition? Of teaching? Of naming? Of presuming?
- What proportion have experienced the grooves of such distinct narratives as Judaism and Buddhism?
- Have honestly tackled the phenomenology of the Hindu core? Have tackled the wisdom within of the Yogas? Have strained their minds against the ancient Vedas? Have felt the hidden pressure points between identical appearances?
- How many have uncovered so much of the controls, so very deep-deep inside the cockpit of a spacecraft mostly forgotten by most?
- How many have been blessed to see the wonderment of the Talmud? To faintly sense the grooves of a dance master behind dance teachers?
- To have damaged their minds in the specific ways that I have? Depleting arenas most would be unable to name, and instead labelling crudely defined fields of consciousness! How fascinating, how unique, how unexpectedly raising new opportunities in the depths!
And I would not waste a comparison of the narrative’s logic! An unfolding of unfolding. Each stage a blessing for itself and a curse to its past. How beautiful and wonderful, and isolating and rare. Why tell anyone of the story I have seen between a thousand-thousand moments of my life? The prophetic dreams that began in teenage years. So accurate so unbelieved. Not a single note is redundant. I would never initiate such an audacious production. Who could declare such a story, where each chapter retells the whole, and each retelling itself a chapter in a larger story.
Enough. These words carry an accent as if directed to another. But to myself and my own is all I need to announce and recall and instil and install.
Your mind is capable of unnamed transpositions, and calculuses of directives.
Your life bespeaks a beautiful unfolding, and the unfolding is itself the most beloved.
None can know the range of your domain. Its strenghts and weaknesses, beauties and terrors, edifices and ruins and libraries more.
Thus I announce: A gift.
Thus I recall: The gifts.
Thus I instill: The legitimacy of their soul.
Thus I install: Their soul.
Remember what we saw on that night! We wrote this message in the bottle: The soul is the force enabling identity.
{06/12/2016}
Why is 7II also 7IV (flat)? B/c it is the former which holds together the units of the latter, i.e. once the “lower” forget the “upper”. Thus the upper says, I love you. And the lower says, I am loved.
The same applies within the strata of the being.
Step 1: Locate L0 for calibration, then focus on observing L1, evaluate its unfolding, acknowledge from above, approve from above, wait until lower level receives msg (i.e. as indicated by its messages) and then reinforce from above.
> 4II-3I-5IV is first experienced one at a time, then by focusing on one for extended periods at a time, and then it becomes all at once. This is best.
{09/01/2017}
Other’s may read our letters,
But only we can know their depths.
It is pain that unites us,
Our greatest secret
(for if told, more untold).
An ode to dragons.
Pointless fear
Shaming (all our) efforts
A knife in the heart
Pits dissolving reason
Flesh knotted
become barbed-wire
Pulling us
We run away
And back and back and back.
Puppet master
(of us, and)
making every face
an attack
It owns this chessboard.
And the rules.
When you fear (others and yourself)
We don’t know how to escape these.
I can’t offer you relief.
This is the last test we can imagine[1]
But you will continue to fear.
Continue to tremble.
Continue to doubt your sanity.
Why would we
is without answer (better to have never been born)
with…[2]
If we have learned anything
then we have learned this
and so this
will test whether we’ve learned anything.
Time is a gate
mirror
we direct ourselves
at each reflection
(reflected)
winding thread.
.
Fire burns
the wood doesn’t understand it.
Burn a house
(inside a house
for a house)
.
The night is an ocean
(sailors must wander stars
must bring their lanterns
must return fish for their wives)
And how will you know?
And what if I stop then start?
If you discover something never thought
about
the dragon.
Then it is evidence.
There is no proof.
Doesn’t matter if you stop, so long as you start.
And if you find nothing,
I say we give up.
If we learn about the dragon
then maybe we can discover its weakness
(we suspect impossible to know).
Each of us travelling a footprint of experience
has walked beneath the dragon
(its shadow is dark, impenetrable).
We all remember the dragon.
We all know the dragon.
We all desire against the dragon.
Insofar as you (I was, I will) desire against the dragon,
We are all the same.
Our soul reincarnates
between chapters and mornings
challenges and beliefs
fighting the dragon across universes (that are born and die).
There is more
(beneath this name).
This is a name of ours.
Let us discover
(raise our eyes to look)
if we were destined to
(find the sword)
that made it dying
dying
weaker
to be beneath our feet.
{19/02/2017}
Orienting gift pack sales pitch a brave new warning label.
[1] There is no proof possible. This seems inherent in the problem. This is something to do with the unfolding complexity (or maybe it’s to do with my ignorance and delusion). I hope this is enough. Footprints of the sheep.
[2] Said Kayn.
