Meta1: Look at yesterday and realize that I seriously need to revise my ability to use whatever code {fyi: markdown} this site uses for formatting!
Meta2: Amongst the (potential) benefits of using a contents page, as introduced yesterday, is that it allows for easy copying and/or revision, and/or allowing partial-continuity and/or reference.
- Markdown.
- Diary; or, Dealing with a non-problem.
- Looking after oneself, myself.
Markdown
Thing’s I need to remember (due to mistakes or misuse, and similar):
- Linebreak = two spaces followed by Enter.
- One style for headers is using a number of #’s
- Like in email’s “>” is for quoting (nb. incl. their no.)
- List “point” may be */+/- and be up to three spaces from margin
- Use tabs to make lists look nice by having hanging wrapped items
- Separate by empty line to make paragraphs. (Nb. the empty line will turn both pre and post points into paragraph points)
- List items may consist of multiple paragraphs. Each subsequent paragraph in a list item must be indented by either 4 spaces or one tab.
- Tab creates codeblock.
- Produce a horizontal rule tag by placing three or more -/*/_ on a line by themselves (spaces are optional).
- Single surrounding with */_ is em, whilst double is strong.
- Note to self: I may copy/paste and save a 750w entry into notepad before the day-cycle’s end so as to allow myself a comparison of before/after formatting and thus of the success or otherwise of my markdown usage.
Diary; or, Dealing with a non-problem
I didn’t sleep all night, and am currently experiencing strong anxiety. Anxiety is, I am aware, the uncomfortable uncle amongst the symptoms of mania, which is in turn exacerbated by sleep deprivation. Once I’ve put it down on paper, like this, it seems very likely (and is probably obvious) that it is my feelings of anxiety which is prompting, in turn, anxious thoughts (regarding future). If I think back to last night, I was neither so anxious nor thinking these anxious thoughts, and since nothing has changed in the interim (i.e. there are no new reasons to fear the future), it is thus proved that the only things that have changed are inside my mind.
Hence, I conclude, that I may for the meanwhile regard any anxious thoughts as displaced. I may if I so insist follow up on those thoughts – give them shape, for instance – I have that right. But having reached my conclusion regarding their origin and mechanism, it seems (and probably is) foolish.
“Well done,” I’ve dissected myself. But, “Now what?” I can’t help but wonder. I had planned to lay out all my worries, work through them as studiously as for an exam. But now it seems I don’t need to. So what am I writing this for? Because I’m thinking this. But why am I thinking this? What value has this train if it has no more destination? I mean, perhaps it does have a destination, but the tracks must now be manually followed before I can know either way. What’s more, I have no great interest or advantage along these lines, aside, that is, from this mediocre question, “What does one do when one realise one didn’t have a problem?”
“Whatever you want,” I suppose.
Looking after oneself, myself
I’m copying (with modification) the following from my black notebook:
These are ideas relating to self-tasking, most especially those that could benefit from the context of diarizing or similar. The following are the major categories, with notes.
Bodily health:
Here I need to be aware and admit that I am at a very low level, and that areas that I would instinctively label minor, nonetheless are worthy tasks, thus its members must be made into explicit aims, and especially I need to allow myself appreciation and auto-congratulations along the way towards and upon their achievements.
The main areas are three: Hygiene, Medication, and Nutrition.
(What might be thought a fourth point – Exercise – is one that has a purpose in being introduced only have some progress in this field has been made.
Autodidacticism: A major value here is satisfaction, but I should not neglect perception and consideration of improvements that have independent practical value including/and skill acquisitions.
Mental health: This is practically a meta-category, insofar as it is achieved not only by its own tasks and goals, but also via ALL other fields of progress. I must not lose sight of it in its own right. And insofar as what it means, well, I would emphasize the keywords of happiness, satisfaction, and (esp. in my case I must admit) stability. As with all that I’ve written in this chapter, there is much more to write for each of these fields, but I would like to mention at least the exercises of meditation and (those various tasks that involve) diarizing.
