I\u2019ve been thinking a lot recently about where I\u2019m going with my life, the changes that I desire, and the places (inside and out) that I want to be.<\/p>\n
Some days I hold on to an amorphous fantasy in my head, a castle in the air of planetary proportions, a benign death star that would prove the infinite potential I (sometimes) feel peeking through the cracks in my chest. I tell myself that even if I don\u2019t make it to stars, if I only make it a fraction of the way to Andromeda, I will still be sailing through the cosmic void, become a minor constellation.<\/p>\n
Some days I pivot my actions on the person that I want to be, on the (infinite) potential that lies shrouded and untapped beneath the layers of history and mistakes and mindless habituations. If I can train my body to do anything that I want then it will be my tool and never hinder me. If I can train my mind to do anything that I want then it will be my tool and never hinder me. If I can push my character towards a momentum that serves my goals, then I will always move closer towards them. ![\"2-HORSE_DRAWN_CHARIOT_&_Roman_Charioteer_Bronze_Sculpture\"](\"https:\/\/travelleristhejourney.files.wordpress.com\/2015\/11\/2-horse_drawn_chariot__roman_charioteer_bronze_sculpture.jpg?w=300&resize=300%2C207\")
There are many horses attached to this chariot, and sometimes I have become identified with one over the other, identifying my being with it, and other times they have conflicted with each other or with the dreams in my heart. If I am in harmony with my carriers, and if my carriers are allowed to exercise their potential and discover and express their capacity, then I can do anything that is possible.<\/p>\n
Some days I yearn for the things outside me that would nurture and entertain me. I look out at the malleable world and its monadic participants and wish for an involvement and power to interact with and entrance both. Love and power, opportunity and abundance.<\/p>\n
Some days the explorer inside calls out for a discovery and understanding of all. Every person and culture and history and psychology and purpose and creation and instruction and explanation and hypothetical and imagination is a sufficient and necessary parameter in the search for everything.![\"5745387762_1e9ec0cc1e_o\"](\"https:\/\/travelleristhejourney.files.wordpress.com\/2015\/11\/5745387762_1e9ec0cc1e_o.jpg?w=196&resize=196%2C300\")
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Some days I hear the call of a creator, and crave to remake this world in my own image. I wish to set a fire that will enlighten, that will offer protection and possibility and a certainty of change.<\/p>\n
There is a hierarchy of being. My body supports my mind supports my soul combines into my character that generates momentum that creates a future. Yet everything is connected, and there is no foundation except perhaps the abstraction that is my will.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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