Just for a few minutes. Not literally.<\/p>\n
The way things look is undeniable.<\/p>\n
The more we look, the more we see. And it’s still undeniable.<\/p>\n
But behind it all. Between shadows and flickers of distraction, is some other thing, a gossamer lighthouse, impossible and tall.<\/p>\n
I don’t know what other shapes it has; only the ones I’ve seen: It’s the desperate hope that the way something looks is not the way it will be. Will be tomorrow. Will wake up. Will have some greater meaning.<\/p>\n
Hope is a spark that flares inside a broken heart and hides\u00a0before the faceless\u00a0winds of a disinterested time, that cycles and turns but never brings us back to the source of that\u00a0indefinable, indefatigable longing for something that was. Is no more.<\/p>\n
Step outside. Ignore the world. Ignore what happened. Ignore what you know. Hope.<\/p>\n
And when you step back inside, and the world crashes in like a drowning man demanding air: It’s ok. It’ll be there when you step outside again.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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