There is an anchor that weighs down the left side of my body. I am torn.<\/p>\n
I wish to ignore it, force it to dissipate through sheer exclusion of awareness, until I am free of its burden (when I can float through walls and transform into fantastic\u00a0shapes).<\/p>\n
I wish for things that contradict that repulsion. I wish to live in harmony with my being, so that I may avoid suffering. I wish to live in harmony with my being, so that I may form relationships and not exist in perennial solitude.<\/p>\n
The cave you fear to enter holds the treasure you seek. (Joseph Campbell)<\/p><\/blockquote>\n
This is not the sudden burst of a diver’s leap. This is the slow travail of Atlas’s eschatology.<\/p>\n
There are ideas I want (wish, need, desire, insist, hold to be self-evident that I do) not to care about.<\/p>\n
There are emotions that I deny (wish, need, desire, insist not) caring about.<\/p>\n
If I care about something then something controls me, makes me weaker, exposes a vulnerability.<\/p>\n
If I experience an emotion about something, then I care about it, am responsive to it, and vulnerable to its whims and malice.<\/p>\n
“Why should I ask myself to hurt myself,” says the voice. And I am sorry for its sadness.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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